[Intro]
It’s really hard, it’s really hard
How do you get across four years of trauma in just a single line
A single song lyric
How do you get across—
How do you get it across with the proper delivery, and the performance
It’s just so much pent-up years of anger, sadness, grief, and
[Chorus]
Guess respect is lost, ‘cause we’re not focused on the same point
Manipulate this to your liking with every phrase coined
Bridges gotta burn, ‘cause we detach from the main point
Lookin’ at my double, like two sidеs of the same coin
[Verse 1]
Insecuritiеs intertwined in a web of lies, seamlessly
Rhythmic drilling in the skull keeping me awake ceaselessly
Impossible yearning, craving what I cannot have needlessly
Painting a thousand strokes to reform oneself, ingeniously
The effort is tangled
A reset often means disturbed returns to prior angles
Hyper aware and conscious of the mirrored adolescent
It takes death to respect what is living in the present
Uncomfortably sentient of my existence and how it burdens me
Every single mood swing feels like a merciless emergency
Awake at 4 AM staring at my own reflection
Isolation in an ocean, I’m forced in every direction
Plagued by what I can’t resolve, so I’m tainted and distorted
Humility is clear when my own echoed image is contorted
The concept of true love is something that I’ve never known
When I learn to love myself, I guess I’ll stop being alone
Mesmerized in a fashion in which I cannot speak
Delusional depictions make me feel utterly weak
I’m looking at you, cracked; appearance messy and askew
Knowing that the only person wanting you to die is you
The cold hand of Death loves the way your body curves
Everything you do illustrates your undying nerves
Daily derealization and embracing disembodiment
Learning how to love hate, self-destruction embodying
[Chorus]
Guess respect is lost, ‘cause we’re not focused on the same point
Manipulate this to your liking with every phrase coined
Bridges gotta burn, ‘cause we detach from the main point
Lookin’ at my double, like two sides of the same coin
[Bridge]
And at the very top, where he was alone, but not alone
He pulled back his string and he tightened his bow
And said nothing at all, just breathed
And held it, a moment, and then let everything go
[Verse 2]
I pull myself through the glass and recognize me as evil
I keep malice inside to stop hurting other people
Perfection’s an illusion and yet it’s what you ask of me
Deep commitment sets everybody up for agony
I’m a stranger in my skin, I detest how I perceive it
Punching crystalline until I bleed, I’m not bothered to clean it
You necessitate a filter, love; you are not unbridled
I'm a walking corpse, to what life am I entitled
Treat me like a pawn, all I want to ask is how could you
You made me feel so stupid for doing what a kid would do
Tears stain pale cheeks on a cold night in October
Haven’t spoken to you yet, already know that it’s over
Using your moral high ground to accelerate the pressure
I’m surrounded by people, yet I feel more alone than ever
Egotistic power trip, like, who gave you the right to choose
If I could go back in time, you can bet that I’d still lie to you
I’ve been traumatized for four fucking years of my life
I try to let it go, but I still remember in spite
I hate how I acted, I hate how I felt
Consequences left me haunted, now I hate myself
Eyes everywhere on me, now each sense is alert
When you go to Hell, you’ll live with the people that you hurt
Atmosphere drenched in misery, future feeling ominous
The side of you that I loathe to espouse is my death consciousness
