This is for the struggle, this is for the pain and misery
This is for the uncontrollable rage that lives in me
I could explicitly paint it or it explain it dividely
Still the inner workings of my brain remains a mystery
Intrinsically ordain but I refrain from claiming victory
Til I can take a breath that makes sense of this tainted imagery
Plain and simple, late explanation that they're giving me
Cannot break the chains or erase the stains of history
It's illogical, hopping obstacles as I climb
And it's hard to chronicle, a chronological timeline
I'm kinda like Einstein when I design rhymes
My thoughts scatter when they shatter that's why I'm at of my mind
My thoughts are worded wordless, I have heard the verdict
Now I'm seeing thing teetering on the verge of nervous
I search the surface to confirm my worth is worthless
Now I'm burning in this furnace for some predetermined purpose
See I been to hell too, look at the hand I'm dealt
So how can I help you when I don't understand myself
I've been baffled mentally, for the past half a century
Cuz of the purpose or actions that have happened accidentally
And I can't explain cuz man was made fallible
Feeling like a caged animal so the rage is natural
My faith was malleable but now it's rock solid
Try to borrow God's knowledge cuz tomorrow's not promised
I'm free from bondage, even though the coast is clear
I really don't know where I'm suppose to go from here
The pain is so severe cuz I hold it near
My whole career I been screaming there is not a soul to fear
Still this arduous strain tends to start on my brain
Cuz it's hard to explain how a heart harnesses pain
I march in the rain to get my soul cleansed tonight
No I won't bend and there's no end in sight
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I can't explain why man's insane
I can't explain why they put my hands in chains for playing this random games
I can't explain why you would stab your fam for fame
And why when we're burning in hell we only help um fan the flames
I can't explain why the plans have changed
I can't explain the massive strain on my damaged brain
I can't explain why the fans would chant your name
But before the answers came I could understand the pain
I've seen choices that have led to tragedy and slaughter
Watch the poison as it spreads from the fallacies they offer
I hear noises from the dead screaming there has to be some order
Cuz the voices in my head are personality disorders
You should know that I rose from the grave unafraid
About to go berserk cuz I'm overworked and underpaid
I'll never become a slave, I'd rather be a bleeding corpse
I'll fight til my dreams are lost with the rest of my fleeting thoughts
I see the cross and I'm reminded of a sacrifice
And how I'm imbued with the force that brought it back to life
I will scrap and fight with all that I got left
You sound shocked, you knew I was bound to stop but not yet
I'm slightly psycho, a perverted circus sideshow
The pain that I hold takes a slight toll on my life's goal
I feel timid but I write bold
I've spent hours in the dark and now my heart is ice cold
I'm frost bitten, addicted to that freezer burn
This Earth is just as evil, it's something these people need to learn
It reconfirms what it's for, death and nothing more
I know this shit sucks and this much I'm sure
Cuz the main name of the game is to make paper
Can't lock me to that son, Tabs One's a chain breaker
Try to send me to my death I'll resurrect a day later
'Bout to eradicate all of these snakes and their fake nature
I escape slave labor but it seems there's a paradox
Cuz I plummet when I reach the summit of the mountain top
These cowards plot to power lock the sound we got
But I work around the clock, I don't know how to stop
Whether I smoke an ounce or not, I'll still seem stressed
Cuz I'm willing to help but I'm killing myself with each breath
I'm speechless and I guess it's just as good
Cuz these dreams of mine can't be defined only understood
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