[Chorus - Tactic$]
Last night, I had a close call
I was mixin' up some things that would eventually begin to snowball
(begin to snowball)
I didn’t give a shit if I would wake up in the A.M. at all
(in the A.M. at all)
I didn't give a shit if I would wake up in the mornin' at all
(in the mornin’ at all)
No I didn't give a shit if I would wake up in the mornin' at all
(in the mornin' at all)
[Verse 1 - Tactic$]
Last night, I had a close call
Mixed a little too much
And got a little too involved
The result kept me up
I felt a beatin' in my chest
In distress, got so much I need to confess
But I should rest
My whole body feelin' toxic
I was tryna have fun
And have fun this is not it
Bad decisions that's what lead me to this
And if I my life is a movie
This the end of the flick...but wait
Maybe I exaggerate and believe my own lies?
Hypnotized, think I'm set in my fate
Anxiety accompanies a lack of sobriety
Nerves bad, cold sweats, shivering maniacally
Hope that I’m a be alright
Hope I make it through tonight
I hope that I don’t OD
I hope this ain't my last night...
To be honest...
I’m shakin' in my boots
Shakin' from a cocktail that was chemically induced
(right?)
[Chorus - Tactic$]
Last night, I had a close call
I was mixin' up some things that would eventually begin to snowball
(begin to snowball)
I didn’t give a shit if I would wake up in the A.M. at all
(in the A.M. at all)
I didn't give a shit if I would wake up in the mornin' at all
(in the mornin' at all)
No I didn't give a shit if I would wake up in the mornin' at all
(in the mornin' at all)
[Verse 2 - Tactic$]
I need to confess
My life is full of stress
Turbulent mind because I never get rest
Burnt out and run down
Off cycle with the sun now
My cycle is to go so hard that my energy runs out
Doubtin' that I'll ever learn
Prolly keep with the same shit
Life unstable, ex-girls say I ain't shit
Hypocritical is what I think of most
Most of y'all live ya life by a hypocrites quotes
Hypocrite myself, don't tell me 'cause I know
Winnin' but I took some Ls and still stayed afloat
They tried to rock my boat
Hopin' it would sink
To me it's all a joke
Don't give a fuck what you think
A few times I lost hope, they pushed me to the brink
So I put Molly, Rum, Coke and Coc in a drink
Really felt like the "real" me for the 1st time
And when I come down...
I'm a have the worst time
[Chorus - Tactic$]
Last night, I had a close call
I was mixin' up some things that would eventually begin to snowball
(begin to snowball)
I didn't give a shit if I would wake up in the A.M. at all
(in the A.M. at all)
I didn't give a shit if I would wake up in the mornin' at all
(in the mornin' at all)
No I didn't give a shit if I would wake up in the mornin' at all
(in the mornin' at all)
[Verse 3 - Tactic$]
I wonder if I'll ever change?
Truly I don't really know
Anxiety's a bitch
And it make my brain loco
Fine 'till they trigger me
Diss me and belittle me
'Cause when it's like that
I lose sight of the bigger me
Adrenaline has got me shakin' with negative energy
So I'm a get ghost like a mothafuckin' entity
Let me be
Feel like somethin's missin' like discrepancies
Honestly
Don't what the F has gotten into me!
Heartbeat irregular, my jaw clenched, my body tense
In and out
Really wish I would have kept my innocence
In a sense
I'm in another world takin' notes
Hope that I survive
Please advise how to cope
Never suicidal, to say the least I'm reckless
No sleep, close call, 5 A.M. it's breakfast
Ego driven habits make me think I lost my essence
Almost saw a light so I decide to count my blessin's
