[Verse 1: Time]
When I was young I never would have looked at my life and planned this
When we were young we used to just sip Kool Aid and take shit for granted
Like having friends who didn't have bullet holes in their heads
Now I'm staring 30 in the face and most my friends are dead
Every conversation is just another seed that we planted
A letter can be medicine or a drought that desires forever famines
Is the meaning of life just to turn to dust and return to the planet?
Or is it just to rearrange things and try to make a change in between blame
Until your heart stops shoving blood to your brain these eyes are window panes
This whole galaxy is marching towards a future black hole
While we fight over faith and food for a phantom god in an invisible castle
I sit back in my seat stuck in a another traffic jam
Just trying to go to work again then go home again what's the plan?
How many times have we done the same things and lived the same lives?
I don't know if there is reincarnation but if I have another life you can have mine
I plan on getting it right this time around, I'm just trying to listen others
I'm just trying to show some love, spread the positive and hug my mother
To all my friends who are gone, I swear you haunt me through this song
Every time I think about you I wonder what the fuck I did wrong
Could i have stopped you, would your family have lost you?
Or were you already dead cuz this world finally got to you?
I don't know the answers i just want to know where you went
Can you hear me right now or are you just ash on the cement?
[Hook: Time]
And I swear I'm feeling fine
And I swear I'm feeling fine
Without you
And I promise I don't even think about you
And I promise I don't even think about you
I don't cry, my eyes are dry
I said goodbye when you were still alive
I should of stopped you
[Verse 2: Time]
Its been almost a year to the day, when I had to hear you say
That you didn't want to live anymore, I just tried to laugh it away
I felt my smile decay, and told you there was another way
You agreed as we went to the corner store now your life's erased
How many friends have left us? how many more will leave?
I guess we stop counting when we stop to blink and become deceased
At 1 a.m. walking on the wet autumn leaves, I watch my breath rise
I look up at the stars, they're still there like all my lies
It's now a year and a half since you've been gone since you've been dead
But I keep on rewinding the week, back and forth through my head
But regret is a grave you can dig it up but it never brings the past back
You can stare at the bones but you can never reanimate and have it back
Your just stuck with the silence and stuck with the what the ifs
Rigor mortis sunset, the clouds are stiff, the frost covers the blood red bricks
Nihilist thoughts to myself like what the is this all for
Like why did you have to die on that hotel floor, I'm crying on all fours
I'm blaming myself like everyone else, but don't worry I'm also blaming others
After the denial anger comes, I saw you under the coroner covers
I wish this song was abstract, I wish this was fantasy rap
I wish I was writing fiction, I wish this wasn't fact
I think I finally made to the desert of the real, I saw mirages of lakes
Turns out they were my inverted tears from smiles I've faked
I love you, I miss you, I've finally realized your gone
But please know you live on through my memory and through these songs
[Hook: Time]
And I swear I'm feeling fine
And I swear I'm feeling fine
Without you
And I promise I don't even think about you
And I promise I don't even think about you
I don't cry, my eyes are dry
I said goodbye when you were still alive
I should of stopped you
