[Intro]
It's a constant state of, uh worry
Something that can really conflict in your life
And, and, and really limits what you can do in your life as well
You just, the world is turning around you
And you can’t, do anything (You can’t do it)
You’re not helping anything (It’s very hard to concentrate)
And no one wants to be around a person who’s constantly down
[Chorus]
The mist in my mind here is kind of what blinds me
Feeling so lost on a cloud in a pipe dream
Can you tell me what your eyes see?
Can you tell me what your eyes see?
The mist in my mind here is kind of what blinds me
Feeling so lost on a cloud in a pipe dream
And I self-destruct
I been down so long can you help me up
[Verse 1]
I've been walking on a tight rope
For likе the last fucking 60 days
Shit has changed and my mates turnеd to fricken snakes
I sit awake and I question myself
Why’s my life in this rut and rejecting the help
It’s kind of funny
I just want to do my best here the ends near
I just want to open my next beer, so tell me
Why am I so smothered in hate
Another mistake, as pain starts flooding my brain
Am I awake?
How do I sleep with my head?
I had a stroke hooked up to meds in a hospital bed
Is this the end? Or will my music live on?
It’s hard to keep your head up
When you’re always feeling so lost
Lord help me
I just want to take my next step
Instead of my life being placed on a death bed huh
I just sit and reflect
And ask myself how life got me thinking of death
Withered and tense this for anyone feeling depressed
Why do I only feel alive on the tip of my pen
Am I broken?
Maybe I’m not
I’ve got the world in my ear saying shake it all off
It’s fucked up
Put yourself in our shoes
Put yourself in our views
Look it’s all around you
Swallowed by my thoughts but I never let my mouth move
Huh, it’s kind of ironic
Got so much to say, but they say they’re above it
So I put my pen to the page and just maybe they trust it
Cause I’ve been living my life in a circle
Why does she hurt me?
Why do I hurt you inside babe I’m burning
My anxieties back
I froze up in my car and nearly died in a crash
I grip the wheel
Tell me it’s a write off I’m trapped
And if you know how it feels
It’s why I’m writing this track
It’s pretty messed up
I want to go ingest drugs
Use to escape but I end up in her head
Fuck
In this spiralling pit
Life is a bitch
So I kick the slut right in the minge
This violent abyss, grabs my mind
I try not to sink
But this boats going down and I pilot the ship
Its 2:30
Holding my head in my hand, showing the devil my plan
Solely endeavour for dad
In this life that we live babe nothing is free
Take my hand straight to never land, stuck in a dream
And we can fly, fly, until our wings fall off
And im’a take you to the stars where our sins can stop
And we can ride, ride to the next life, ride with the best
Times right to the next flight, life is a test drive wise
Should I vent why time isn’t spent wise, knife to my neck like
I just, I just want it to end
So I sit awake all night drunk with a pen
[Chorus]
The mist in my mind here is kind of what blinds me
Feeling so lost on a cloud in a pipe dream
Can you tell me what your eyes see?
Can you tell me what your eyes see?
The mist in my mind here is kind of what blinds me
Feeling so lost on a cloud in a pipe dream
And I self-destruct
I been down so long can you help me up
[Verse 2]
As I sit in my room
Thinking that I live in a tomb
Liquor abuse, wishing I could sing a different tune
Is it the booze?
Or maybe it’s me?
I self-medicate lately but it takes me to sleep
I’m hating myself, am I the one changing myself
Fighting my thoughts and I feel like a stranger to help
I want to talk
But no one wants to listen though
Here we go a victim living on this fricken rigid road
I sit alone, and I question my worth
I feel selfish when I say I wasn’t meant for this earth
I have a gift, but lately I don’t want to exist
Haley you make me crazy baby cause our love was a myth
Stuck in this pit, I walk through the valley of death
Attacking my friends and then I end up back in my bed
A manic depressed addict and I’m relapsing again
Had it I can’t manage as I go collapse in her hand
I’m so lost, lost as I walk these plains
I order with change, but hey I feel borderly sane
I grab a pen, the only way I know how to vent
Can you take me far away so I can finally rest
Alive but I’m dead it’s like it’s now time for the end
A silent depressed guy living inside of his head
I’m crying again, and I feel like a bitch
I got to show my mum I’m strong, as I sink with the ship
Sinking quicker with the liquor in this shitty abyss
I substitute my dirty habits a familiar fix
Is that wrong?
Nah, it’s how I can cope
I never had the power, now feel like a coward to mope
I need help
I need to find those better times, need to find a better life
For me to go excel at mine
It’s too hard
I feel like I suffocate, so real as I suffer hate
I feel like a fucking waste, I feel like it numb the pain
At the bottom of my bottle
Tryna’ wash away the pain, but dive inside a pool of sorrow
No use
Why do I sook to you?
Why do you give a fuck?
I want to go hook the noose
Cry out my tear ducts
It’s what you have put me through
It’s not that I need your love
But suffer when I’m with you
In love with a type of mood
I need to pick myself back up
Cause I’m calling out for help, I get told man up
Is it real?
Or is it a dream?
I need someone to tell me that there’s need to believe
So I can leave
Leave the shadowy pit, this patch of weakness
And these gallows I’m in
I want to live my life can you tell me that it’s okay?
But this devil in my ear is telling me it won’t change
So strange that I’m walking this road
And if you know how I feels, you know you’re never alone
And I’m out
[Chorus, Closing]
The mist in my mind here is kind of what blinds me
Feeling so lost on a cloud in a pipe dream
Can you tell me what your eyes see?
Can you tell me what your eyes see?
The mist in my mind here is kind of what blinds me
Feeling so lost on a cloud in a pipe dream
And I self-destruct
I been down so long can you help me up
