[Intro] (Slam D)
All these things that I'm feeling
It's not easy for me to forget
I feel so alone... come back!
I'm always thinking about u, all of the time...
[Hook]
Lord Jesus, my King (my King)
Why you always pull me outside (why you always pull me outside)
When u know how... how hard it is it takes my breath away
I don't wanna lose my mind, I don't wanna lose what's mine before I blow
[Verse 1]
Shit is crazy since October I been so fucking lost
Nothing could ever prepare me take my mother's loss
I been cursing, been searching because I been hurting
To buy you that brand new Mercedes mom I been certain
All before you got to see me on TV, at the time I'm still performing in venues with empty seats
Rocking my Jordan Vs, maybe my skinny jeans
When I really started to flex on Phangkela's beats
How these youngins want a co-sign from me
Got me feeling The Pinnvcle they always tryina reach
But this a small town of course of who I am to speak
Where the freedom of association leads to your defeat, so I...
Decide I to cut ties with these bitch boys
These snitch boys, all of you who ain't fucking with my clique boys
All I want is everyone to make a big noise
Whether it's the sound or the decor spill out your voice
[Hook]
Lord Jesus, my King (my King)
Why you always pull me outside (why you always pull me outside)
When u know how... how hard it is it takes my breath away
I don't wanna lose my mind, I don't wanna lose what's mine before I blow
[Verse 2]
Older youngin with some big dreams, always plotting new schemes
Love to see my generation interested in new things
See me navigate the labyrinth without a blueprint
I know u did 1st, I did right, so fuck what you think
If I give in to this depression I know I will sink
Gotta keep moving, stop spinning like a whirlwind
When I found you in your bed I swear that was my world end
Made me even question if I really love my girlfriend
I been different, I can really tell something missing
I don't really feel like writing bout some big pimping
I paint a bigger picture step back to see my vision
Boy you too close, you'll overdose if you get the image
But if this shit was all written let it be
I dunno maybe God got a bigger plan than me
I question everything even like why I have to sleep
I'm getting to a point where they cut me I don't bleed
I got... ghetto dreams like this rhythm city
Plenty things you would think are silly, probably make more than a milli
A couple months could see us own a landmark building
I don't really care who dropping what I'm minding my business
I don't really listen to niggas that's why I sound different
Been around the block and I cannot define women
Swear this one shawty till today is mind gripping
Rest in peace my lovely mother your spirit forever shines, Pinkie
[Bridge]
Always shinning in my heart (always shinning in me)
I forever feel your presence though your not with me
Where are u?! (Ay) I need u! (I wanna give u everything)
Rest in Peace to mama I swear I will not forget you
You forever in heart and there's no one above you
[Hook]
Lord Jesus, my King (my King)
Why you always pull me outside (why you always pull me outside)
When u know how... how hard it is it takes my breath away
I don't wanna lose my mind, I don't wanna lose what's mine before I blow
[Outro]
Oh mama... I'll forever-ever honor n respect u
U forever gone be my Angel
I will always love u mama, oh mama...
