[Verse 1]
My eyes are open, but am I actually awake? Am I dreamin' or seein' people, imagine that it's fake
I be tossin' and turnin' feel like I'm trapped on the ceiling I'm fightin' battlin' demons, wakin' up to scratches on my face
Think I'm starting to feel it burn, from the pastor when he prays, now my arms have been reaching further, they have to be detained
Now my heart isn't beatin' hurry, my arteries leakin' worse and the doctor be thinkin' surgery has to be the way
I be making a lot of profits, taking a lot of losses. Living whеre they kill 'em еveryday when they try to walk
I'm lookin' out the window while they breaking inside of cars, and layin' 'em down across the brains and the body parts
This ain't a game don't be playin' them kind of cards, U never gon' be winnin' when U playin' the final boss
And that don't even matter when U say that U got a squad, I'll be the reason y'all'll get acquainted with body guards
I be looking for the fame and it's kinda hard, I drink until I dissolve the pain of a hollow heart
Beefin' wit me kinda like a steak to a carnivore, been rappin' to myself like I was saying a monologue
Cuz there ain't nobody around me, I keep the shotty around me if you come outta your house they bury U by tomorrow
Keeping my distance and I don't leave or do anything it's just me in my bedroom with just a blanket that's on the floor
I'm sick of the scenery, sick of it being me. I got everyone leaving me ain't no friends I don't need any
I'm diggin' through memories of the kids who were mean to me who continue to beat me down and then kick me repeatedly
Who left me to bleed I still feel the pins and the needles deep now I sit with the beat and feed this addiction that's eating me
While the pendulum swingin' watch every minute decreasin' I start to wonder how everyone dealing with it so easily
[Chorus]
All of these nightmares they turn into daydreams
And I try to fight fair but can't seem to break free
And nothing can help, stuck in my shell
And that's why I'm By Myself
By Myself (4x)
[Verse 2]
And now I'm risin' just so I can get where I'm going I'm steady climbin'
Spent so many years tryna break through the barriers while they asking me how isn't you blowing up with the rhyming
Well I just stuck with the wrong people I didn't really need, up in Flint and just growing up with the violence
And I would just sit in the corner covering my face with the hoodie breathing the cigarette smoke up in the environment
Everybody said to pick a different road, it's a slippery slope and it's really frightenin'
I was talkin' to people I didn't even really know just to get through the moments I needed guidance
And I noticed I should probably really just handle it on my own after ventin' and talkin' with a psychiatrist
And since I been sitting at home and I just been hidin' my mind has been diggin' up so many little diamonds
This is for the outsiders who be down hidin' with nobody there for 'em but the drugs and liquor (that's me)
This is for the ones that never outside who just sitting in the dark waiting for the sun to hit ya (yeah yeah)
The ones that sat at the empty table at lunch and they wondering why nobody ever runnin' wit ya
They just point and laugh at U to deal with the fact that they know on every level that ain't gon' be fuckin' wit ya
Since I was a child it's been a goal that I'm reachin', back when I was trying to get em all to believe me
Back when I was 9 with a laboratory set up in the bedroom with the vials and chemicals and the beakers
Like I'm trying to get up off of these bleachers and start to wonder why it's so difficult to achieve this
Because I don't fit in with no one I'm independent and lonely on every night I spend alone every evenin' thinkin'
[Chorus]
All of these nightmares they turn into daydreams
And I try to fight fair but can't seem to break free
And nothing can help, stuck in my shell
And that's why I'm By Myself
By Myself (4x)
