Intro:
I hear your voice break through the noise and pain.. my heart's refrain..
So why can't I convince myself, this is the right time.. to contend?
Verse 1: (Clarky)
Fucked.. Standard... That is what my life is like..
Narh I never planned this, And if even in the right of mind
If you could understand it; well then fuck it fam, in spite of mine
I can't even tell my rights from wrongs, nor if right is right?
Im weighing up that weed again, blazing bud to ease my pain
Ive got devilish eyes and god i couldn't care what jesus says
You can blame my past as much as i and never see a change
We've all got pain inside us.. i just try to free my brain
When by the mic; i write a rhyme, recite a line and in a way;
I try bring light to night; night is life inside my brain
People try and hide behind a lie i see the evil find a life
So if my life is yours.. then blud your mind is mine!
Let me take you back in time, at least then you can hear my pain
Bleed my blood, heal my veins, be the judge, put me to shame!
Give me the blame, repeat the same, let them girls mislead again!
Take my friends and break my heart, make me find each and every piece again!
Hook: (Clarky)
Please can't you disease my blame (its certainly hurting me inside cah)
These thoughts won't leave my brain (disturbingly burning in my mind which)
Means, me being me i can't be the same (determinedly yearning for the light)
Please free my grief and ease my pain! (ive earned it now return me to my life)
Hook: (Clarky)
Verse 2: (Clarky)
Im stranded in this life of mine, abandoned in a life of crime
Ive ran it through this mind of mine a thousand times.. still..
If we can't see things eye to eye and you can't understand it
Well then damn it, ive got talent... and fam thats fucking standard!
So i dont care if you can't feel the damage caused like iodine
Cah me i had to raise myself and brave myself or i would die
And you can say you cried for yours i truly had to cry for mine
The difference is i fight for mine and you just let it vanish!
So is it cos i came from nothing to nothing and nothing i still am
That i try to make something out of something like a man
Real passion i had found it, and i had lost it too
Never take nothing for granted, be true to what you do!
See, these diabetes try and beat me on the daily
And bare man wanna beef me cah they hate me..
And bare man wanna be me cah they rate me..
But fuck it, all this dumb shit, i can't help how mummy made me!!
Hook: (Clarky)
Verse 3: (Clarky)
Im a cunt, Am i dumb? Ive hurt so many of my friends
So many members of my family, and i can not pretend
That in the end.. my hindsight should prevent;
Half the stupid shit i do, shit i break, and shit that i will never mend
Well, i hope they know i meant well..
I only hope they knew i meant to make them proud
But it just never really seems to end well..
And i dont mean to bore you with the facts just know its mad
I never meant to grow up fast or live a life of rap!
So you dont need to ask me why i spit like this..
Why i was suicidal, why i slit my wrists..
Was i troubled as a child? was i misguided?
I just wish my wish, was a bit wise this.... (why's this)
This life will never last me, clarky, you ain't gonna stay round
And if that isnt bad enough, i still can't get this pain out...
Ill slowly smoke my life away until i feel relieved again
I only hope to help the helpless, but only if i ease my pain!!
