(Hey Teddy, that's the sound of my beard)
[Verse 1]
I let 'er back, wasn't as easy as I thought it'd be
Solving thoughts of self-worth, getting over you
Feeling all these feet that I'm underneath
The words are coming about as easy as
My peace that it swallows in between
And I'm lost with she consuming my thoughts
Turning he to he is something I don't need
Right, afraid of you, or afraid of me?
Aging the lesson, living in future's worry
I could never see, so I'm allowed to question
And it's not to leave us left guessing
I just wanna breath with a chest free of tension
Have an answer that defines the meaning
It's hard to believe though right?
Honesty, now even the truth is hard to read
So we coop up afraid to speak and stay silent just be
'Cause anger follows the word we, and we don't get
We try, look pathetic, regret that warmth or freeze
I'll stand rejected these words infest
And now hurt is a cure, wings spread be free
And I'll try to be
Sometimes I'm guessing the lessons learned
Are stretched in tethered seams, seems to stretch
Mixing up my thoughts, fuckin' up my speech
And the circle circle's
Starts at the scene where you decide to leave
And I can't pretend to not see if you're right
Cause if I was you I guess, I would hate me
[Interlude]
Yeah I felt like that way for like, I 'dunno, for a while, uh, I was like, too busy trying to like, fix a thing, and keep it alive
[Verse 2]
This is why I step regardless of fate
I move from you, feeling sick and afraid
Foot at a time every day more empty
So I paint but everything bleeds gray
You want proof that I move from what I do
With every truth seen as excuse
What's the use of blame? Already bruised
And claimed everything that we went through
I'm out of pockets to hold this shame with
So sick of past and pain you keep placed in
So I mass mistakes and turn facing a grudge
That claim them, hoping it won't hate it
But it's a monster, it's not solid
My hands go right through
So dark and abused, a shadow to hide promises
We used to hold on to
The only conviction that's said so plain
Is against in defense of misjudged statements
Till we shake in rage you hold aim with a weight
To carry my name in
I'm making you look like a bad person, right?
Is that what you'd say?
I can't feel guilty all the time
And there's only so much I could take
So the stress made a space in old is a tell in the mirror
Only we don't grow, just age to the point of defeat
And it shows, straining to speak but just don't
As awful as I ever was
Hoping for hope, grabbing at air with stares so cold
And a person who crumbles in between holds
I sift through it looking for gold, but find, that I won't
[Interlude]
You know what? That's always like the weird part too, like when people break up and it gets like, ugly and terrible. Like how come they can't just remember, like when they met, they saw something beautiful in each other. They found an attractive person they're like, you know, 'I wanna find out more about them, they seem incredible, they seem very nice, they seem... blah blah blah' and you learn about that person. Why's it all have to get ugly? Why can't it just be remembered that, it started because you fuckin' liked each other
[Verse 3]
This distance creates a space
We fill with fingers pointing cross-ways
And hold our hearts, pledging our side
So brave but afraid to step off base
Such a waste of air to fill words when
Our exhales that hope to help cure just hurt
And we search through what's heard for comfort
But keep finding an ugly person
It's pathetic, someone's gotta say it
At this point, I've run out of guilt
Somewhere between my try and your pride
Free will has turned this to an easy kill
Mistakes are made at times, I'm not perfect
And worse shit you could even claim
But a better person forgives and moves on
Blame threads every glance that you make
I'm losing my will to care or be there, be alone
If the truth is mutual, I know, my silence is hell
[?] where you told take note
Poke the bear beware the path you chose
Cause you [?] my belly up
And I ought to know the same shot
I could [?] show where you rot
I could push and prod till you fold
But I'm not I won't
I could but I don't
I hold that fault to my chest
One hand waving my best, drowning
Afraid of distance but let
The two of us left upset, stop shouting
Assuming a mess, the toll it takes to just rest
In peace each piece still counting
Ways to forget, unless it's a win it's just stress
In address to nothing amounting
So let's just bet on downing each other again
Prep that poker face, push all in
You're all verse to all of me, blood and skin
Who wins can say let's just be friends
And flaunt it, other pretends to not lose face
Gives in, smiles that keep up in company
But never feel safe, neglects, reject, just blend in
