[Verse]
Ayo God come and talk to me, I’m so alone up in this maze but is you lost with me, I even contemplated killing why the Hell you give these thoughts to me, I thought you gave ya heart to me
And father it been way too hard for me dog, it’s kinda funny ain’t it, lately you and I been gettin kinda unacquainted, if I wrote everything inside it’d be 100 pages, I been stuck in phases, and I’m buggin, I’m reluctant, anxious
If I lost my soul who gon be the one to save it, they saying I ain’t living right but I don’t wanna change it, I hate this suffering and my stomach aching, my hunger raising from these nightmares becoming Nathan
I’m staying up this late for nothing everything I’m up creating is amazing and I still can’t get a fucking placement?! 6 months later and I’m still behind on summer payments, God Elohim or Jah ima need a sign no matter what ya name is!
In this generation nothing’s sacred, I wanna go back to them younger days, that’s when I wasn’t tainted, before my Buttas couldn’t trust the pavement, I couldn’t tell you what the crux of mother’s pain is
It’s 3:34 and I ain’t sleep yet, thinking bout the homies that I lost after recess, who never got they momma from the p-jects to p-jets, when they started leaking to the streets I told them be blessed
Crazy thing is most all my niggas they were rejects, teacher told them they’d never achieve and then they regressed, started selling weed and getting T’d to relieve stress, and all the ones I thought would never bleed are Rest In Peace fresh, y’all don’t hear me
Will they find peace in they divine sleep, will I open up my heart or let my mind speak, I need a sign G cause I been tryna keep my mind free, I’m feeling weak and I ain’t tryna see my guys weep
Gotta ration the seed, tired of acting like I’m average like I have to appease, like I ain’t been crafting classics over half of my league, I mastered me, and if you want it bad enough then the passion is free
Feel like I ain’t moving adequate speeds, but this comeback from the ash would make a pastor believe, I know a girl named destiny and she asking for me, and idk how I ain’t fall after what happened to me, cause sheesh
I’m barely afloat, I rarely can cope, and I’ll be damned if I ain’t standing but it’s scary to hope, my family’s broke, I’m damaged and my sanity’s choked, so if I get up on this chair you better hand me the rope
AYO GOD!
Ayo God...I’m sorry
Yo I be feeling like I’m failing you, like I ain’t worth the blood that you was spilling on the cross when they were crowning you and nailing you, and fuck keeping composure I’m hysterical, yo I really need a miracle
[Outro Poem]
I think we all need saving in this fight like, we just wanna find a savior in this life like, but who gon save us from ourselves, we came up in hell and raised well but we fell
African American, you know the blackest skin be scaring em, the trashiest comparisons, the black of sin be wearing him down, but it never even matters till you wearing ya crown
And staring down all the things that you dreamed of, things you seen on the screen and what you schemed up, but no matter what’s ya team we all bleed blood, we all need hugs, and even hateful hearts prolly need love
Looking for the meaning every evening, the feat is to defeat demons, and lead legions, we keep breathing, and look to God for the answers, and let our feelings fly through our stanzas
Amen
[Outro Hook]
Really need a miracle, mercy on my soul
Really need a miracle, life feel outta control
Father do you hear me calling
I need love, I need you now
Father do you hear me calling
I need you to show me how
