[Verse 1: fatmowf]
It feels like it's been forever since I've seen your face
And even longer since you left your bed to leave your place
It's getting hard to hold a conversation because things have changed
I wish that you would talk to me and tell me that you need some space
And I can't tell if when I look at you, I'm seeing hate
Or if its fear, or if it's both, but honestly I couldn't blame
Cause after what we did, I know you can't see me the same
And I'd be lying if I said the way I see you has remained
But I miss you, and that's thе truth
And yeah I know it's fucked up that's my concern, but shit I rеally do
I miss the shit we did as kids, I miss when things were cool
I miss us laying in the green and staring at the blue
I miss our friends together, I miss spending time with you
It hurts to know there's nothing I can do, cause things are really through
And my intentions were the purest, that's completely true
But even so, I ruined everything trying to keep us, I was drunk
[Chorus]
I was drunk
I was drunken off of you
And I ain't even sip the booze
I was drunk, I was drunk
I was drunken off the love
That shit will make you kind of dumb
I was drunk, I was drunk
And I was drunken off the fear
Cause I don't know what I would do if you weren't here
I was drunk, I was drunk
I just wish I could rewind, but every choice I made was mine
I wish that I could lie and say that I was drunk
[Verse 2: fatmowf]
That day, I walked in your house the day of your recital
Cause at that point you played the violin a little while
Your sister signed you up for a duet, you're new to it
But she's been playing piano since a child
And she's such a perfectionist, it gets you kinda riled
Cause she's really passionate and your enjoyment's kinda mild
You approached her with a smile and said "Sis, I'm kinda nervous
Cause the song we're supposed to play, I'm not so confident I learned it"
She said "Well, it's too late, just suck it up, you'll do great"
"No, but I don't wanna do this", "Stop it, I don't care what you say!
We've been practicing so much, you can't just now desert it"
"But I wasn't having fun at all, my fingers kept on hurting
I was doing this for you, and now I don't think this is worth it"
Then things start escalating, I just stood there and observed it
Talking turned to yelling, there was tension in the air
And then eventually you threw your violin right down the stairs
And it broke
And that's when everything got worse
Yelling turned to screaming, tears were falling, I felt awkward
Names were being called, I heard a lot of swearing
And it's not about me, but to be honest, it was scary
I said "Hey, not to intrude, and you two know I'd never judge
But you should move away from the stairs", but the two of them won't budge
And then what happened next, I can't forget it like a grudge
Because as quickly as it started it all ended with a shove
Down the stairs, she fell down every step
My stomach sank, you called her name, she ain't respond, I can't forget
You put your ear up to her lips, I put my hand onto her chest
I didn't feel a beat, I looked at you, you didn't hear a breath
We waited five minutes, five minutes turned to ten
And her heart still wasn't beating when I checked her chest again
You put your face inside your hands, and asked yourself "What have I done?"
"I can fix this", I said, my brain started to run, I was drunk
[Chorus]
Drunk
[Verse 3: fatmowf]
Alright, here
Help me lift her up
Okay, now help me carry her out to the trunk
No, no, we're not gon' call no one for help
Man, are you dumb? This some shit we have to figure out ourselves
Okay, left foot, right foot, left again, walk
Stop worrying, just bring her down the hall
Just trust me, I'm going to fix this, just promise me you'll never tell anybody at all
Alright, she's in, can you go grab me a pen?
And grab a sheet of paper too
No, her diary from her bin
No, no, I know, I don't care if it's too far
I won't let them take you away and put you behind bars
You're a good person, you didn't mean to do that
And prisons for criminals, I don't want you to go through that
Just bring me her diary, I got this, I have a plan
Alright thank you, I knew you would understand
Alright, "Dear diary, and anybody who reads this
I'm sorry, I've had enough of this life and I'm gonna leave it
I've never felt good enough, the recital was way too much
I know this is unexpected, really, you never knew much
I was struggling and hopeless, I kept my feelings secret
And after all of this time I decided that I don't need this
So, if you need my body for the funeral and casket
You can find it at the bottom of the lake where we catch fish"
Alright, alright, that's it
We'll just leave this on her desk, and bring her to the lake and dip
And then if anybody asks, just say she left the house at six
And that you thought that she was going to the store to buy some chips
This is messed up
But they would take you away from me if we fessed up
Alright let's go, and get this over with before lunch
And empty the trunk, fuck, I should have never gotten drunk
But I'm drunk
[Chorus]
I was drunk
I was drunken off of you
And I ain't even sip the booze
I was drunk, I was drunk
I was drunken off the love
That shit will make you kind of dumb
I was drunk, I was drunk
And I was drunken off the fear
Cause I don't know what I would do if you weren't here
I was drunk, I was drunk
I just wish I could rewind, but every choice I made was mine
I wish that I could lie and say that I was drunk
