Jacquie:
I love you too. Now don’t you have somewhere you need to be?
Michael:
Oh shit! Thanks for reminding me. I’ll see you soon
[Verse One: MikelWJ]
If I could tell you every detail, please don’t doubt that I would
And I’m sorry if I failed, I did the best that I could
Just to show you all the pain that was weighing my brain
And the multiple reasons why them and I aren’t the same
I may have skipped a little bit, since I tend to forget
Little parts of my past where I was stuck in a pit
The writers block and the names, I was called every day
Left a permanent impression of the man that it made
I may be spiteful, it’s true, I may be angry at you
But I still wish you all the best with whatever you do
I appreciate the time you spent working on me
I made a mental note of how to be the best I could be
I know you may disagree, but I think it was worth it
The crying and the fear that I’d never be perfect
It made a man out of the boy that I saw in the mirror
Since experience will help you make your life look clearer
[Chorus]
Joshua Lynch:
Hey man I saw your posts on Twitter, is everything alright? You seemed kind of delusional or something talking about wanting to kill yourself and shit. If you ever need to talk or something, just know that I am here. Call me back whenever you hear this. I hope all is well...
[Verse Two: MikelWJ]
My insomnia’s been acting up a lot once again
I'll be tossing and turning in bed till past 4 AM
When I went there at ten, two sleeping pills in my hand
I must have built up a tolerance, where’s the sleep I demand?
I hate my bed is so big. My sheets are more than I need
Since I know that they were made for you to sleep next to me
The shadows dance on the wall, I have a name for them all
And if the moon moves, I watch them as they rise and they fall
These monsters sit in my head, I call them Lonesome and Dread
And they never go away unless someones in my bed
My pills still haven’t kicked in, now it’s a quarter to five
School starts at nine, but there’s a half hour drive
Plus ten minute to shower, and then another to eat
So if I blacked out now I’d get three hours of sleep
The thought is heaven to me, it’s been like this for a week
And these eyelids are so heavy, they’d make Hulk look weak
[Chorus]
Michael:
Hello? Who is this?
Fan #1:
Is this the guy that made that Please Don’t cut song on Youtube?
Michael:
Uhh, yeah that was me...
All in unison:
Oh my god! I can’t believe it’s you! You are, like seriously, my idol! You really saved my life!
Michael:
Oh… Well that was… Loud
[Verse Three: MikelWJ]
My bipolar disorder just fucked me over again
That’s the twelfth time this week I had a fight with a friend
It never comes to an end, I hate the ups and the downs
One minute I feel depressed, the next I act like a clown
One minute I'm picking flowers, the next I'm ripping them up
One minute I crave attention, but then I don't give a fuck
It makes it harder to breathe, I'm asking if I can leave
I think the reason I feel off involves my anxieties
I'm manic going both ways, that's how its going these days
With every mountain there's a valley I'm not ready to face
I’m losing grip kinda slow, now I’m just letting you know
I'll do my best to keep quiet when I finally implode
My story sits unfinished, all of my works incomplete
But my life is still going, so that gives me some peace
I'll keep turning the pages, until there's nothing to read
And when I hit the back cover I'll be ready to leave
[Chorus]
Jacquie:
Goddamn, you think you know everything and you act like you never do anything wrong nowadays. You can’t tell me that this same Michael that I met in High School
Michael:
I’m exactly the same as in High School
Jacquie:
Thats a fucking lie. You change just as much as your mood, so don’t even try to deny that
Michael:
Can you just leave me alone for a little bit, please?
Jacquie:
Not until you tell me what's going on with you. What happened to the old you? What happened to how you used to be so caring?
Michael:
I don’t know
Matt Foster:
Well, Michael. It’s been about three years now, hasn’t it? I’m glad you decided to keep coming to see me every few weeks. I really think you have improved
Michael:
Thank you, it means a lot to me. I personally feel a lot better
Matt Foster:
Good to hear. Anyways, that would be the end of our session. I’ll see you next month, have a good couple of weeks
Michael:
Thank you sir
Thank you for nothing
Thank you for nothing!
