[Intro]
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[Verse]
I don't even know where the fuck to start with you, after this I want no parts of you/
I'm forgiving you even though it's hard to do, I'ma let it go cuz God wants me to
So much hatred in my heart, I was raised in the dark, you'd kick me out I'd stay in the park/
Raise the bar, my face has a scar, let's just say you made your mark
Take it back to '92, I was 5 trying to make a life with you/
You'd leave me alone every night trying to find a dude, you would come back fighting I'd side with you
He'd take off then I'd hide from you, when CPS showed up, I'd lie for you/
Just get it right is all I try to do, when life wasn't right I wouldn't cry to you
All alone in a foster home, too young to understand what's going on/
I had no concerns with going home, Sarah (redacted) was my only mom
Long sleeves covered up the accidents and the slash on wrists from past events/ my back's against the wall I cannot take it all I never asked for this
But I wasn't an addict then, you just had my sis and her daddy split/
You fucked every man in Madison, but I didn't know how good I had it then
On a school night she's squalwing again, you wouldn't wake up had to crawl in her crib/
Give her a bottle and shit, all of that shit, I'm raising your kid I was only ten!
You went and had more children, but it was me that would babysit 'em/
At school I was missing in attendance, disciplined with after-school detention
I come home late , so you start your bitchin, 3 kids starving in the kitchen/
Not to mention in school suspension for the homework I didn't get finished
And my lyrics were well written, so I attended a rap audition/
Spittin wicked, about to win it, I advanced twice in the competition
But you insisted that I miss it, made me go to a job just to quit it/
I never existed as a kid when you had me living within this prison
And the child abuse continued (ohhh), everyone pretended they didn't know/ navy blue ribbon pinned on my clothes, your men would come, your men would go
Fast forward a few years you didn't miss much, a few suicide attempts but I've been a drunk/
Alcoholic since 10 I'm not giving up, I moved out of hell I'ma live it up!
You made me move back cuz you was getting beat, but I only came back for my siblings see/
You let him kick me out on Christmas Eve, sitting in the freezing rain twistin a swisher sweet
No one gets our history, pieces missing that's a mystery/
Still existing in my memory, but I'm not as gifted as my sister see
I got split personalities, get this person outta me/
Twist the ends until I drift into the galaxy
I begin loosing count of the, prob-lems that's surrounding me/
Pretend it will end, and then whims of reality
Listen to the sounds of the, fists coming down on me/
Cleanse my sins, yeah, hit the shit out of me!
Forget just grounding me, another attempt at drowning me/
And you don't have friends because "they hate being arounda me"
And where the fuck is your daddy at? If he wanted you back he'd have your ass/
If you want to leave so bad then pack your bags, bitch get a maxipad with your ragging ass
And where the fuck is my Paxil at? Make an 'Exit Bag' and I'm off to hell/
For God so loved the world that he makes you burn if you decide to off yourself!
And i bet there's someone out there that wants children, but just can't have any/
Who took a look at you and asked God why the hell he gave your ass plenty
Look at all the bullshit I've been through, ever since you got pregnant with you know who/
Your ass is coo coo so he flew the coop, so fuck that motherfucker and fuck you too!
I ain't apologizing for shit! Got a bottle within my grip/
Got a pen and pencil with a sick instrumental, I'll spit about a mental BITCH!
What kind of mother puts her child in jail? Felony charges, but I posted bail/
I beat the charges and I'm living well, but won't stop getting you back till we're both in hell! Fuck you!
